I am so angry and I feel so defeated. I miss my mom she would know how to fix this pain inside. For 16 years I stayed in my fucked up marriage. Had almost every bone in my body broken by an I will be who I am Till they close my coffin Shirt man. I begged him to pull the trigger. I wasn’t afraid to die anymore I welcomed the possibility of death because the pain of living was more than I could take.

I will be who I am Till they close my coffin Shirt

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He let me go because I wasn’t afraid. I don’t know what tripped me up. Out of the blue throwing me back into the past. Maybe it’s an I will be who I am Till they close my coffin Shirt controlled pain that gives me comfort. It takes time, it took me many years to get over the abuse, even now, 30 years later I still have flashbacks, just remember to be kind to yourself.

I’m glad your safe. God bless you Losing your mother is a lifetime of grief. You manage because you don’t have a choice. I wish peace in your heart. Your mama would be so proud of you for loving and standing up for you, just as she would have I will be who I am Till they close my coffin Shirt done if she were here. Be proud of yourself, for you and for her.